and i know that. and i think about that all the time. i know i’m really lucky to have all the things i have. i can do whatever i want and i have so much security.

but i still seem to focus on what is lacking. what i don’t have.

the friendships i wish i had

the friendships i’m trying to hold onto

direction?

i try to be optimistic. and I am. but then Friday night comes along. and I feel alone in all of this.